Hurting. You.

Been trying hard not to do that scariest thing. Yet I have to keep facing it. How in the world that I keep doing it? Moron. Sometimes I wish I'm not the only one who's been suffering. But then knowing that I am not the only one who suffers makes it even devastating.

I'm puzzled with this spot of life. Feels like I'm on the strangest, unfriendly, painful yet the warmest spot under the sky that gives a longing feeling I ever thought would feel. Where I still feel brighten even when I'm drowned with tears.

Oh I wish those little hands would keep me balanced. I really don't want to fall again. I wanna keep my genuine smile and laughter. For good. I'm getting used to them.

I really hope we're gonna be ok. Because that is all what matters now.

I know you won't be alone long if I leave. I know I will.

Menemukanmu

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Ngiluku, Dian.

Dapatkah kau melihat, cinta
Dapatkah kau merasakannya
Apa yang kan terjadi, bila, ternyata
Semua ini hanyalah, mimpi, indah

Harus merelakannya, bila tiba waktunya
Kita harus berpisah

Reff:
Mungkin kini kita tlah berbeda
Dalam melihat cinta
Tak dapat tuk dijalani
Mungkin cinta hanyalah gejolak
Yang kan buat kita kecewa
yang menjadi airmata

Hidup harus tentukan, sebuah, pilihan
Tak selalu, seperti, apa yang kita harapkan
Woo oo

Bila memang jalannya
kita harus relakan

(reff)

Malam menutup hari
Musim kian berganti
Kita harus mengerti

Bila semua, harus, usai sudah

Gasp

Leave love leave you should leave

Love I leave shouldn’t leave love

Which which make me breath?

Pulp Theory #1

"People who always prefer looking out for perfect strangers are very often won't look out for the ones they're supposed to look for "

Much much miss

What did you do if you miss someone so much but cannot see each other?

cry?

pray?

sleep, maybe?

or simply thinks that, the miss could turn into a very deep pain.

Hah!

Us, The Opposite

Odium ><><>< Adore

Space Launches As You’ve Never Seen Them Before

Shuttle launches undoubtedly affect the environment, both directly with their emissions and indirectly through the energy expenditure of manufacturing propellants and parts. However, this pales in comparison with the amount of pollution caused around the clock by air travel. What’s more, each launch is part of the bigger picture that is space exploration, the long-term benefits of which may far outweigh its costs as we overcrowd our small planet. We leave you with a shot of the soon-to-be defunct Space Shuttle Atlantis launching at sunset, the shadow of its plume, cast across the sky, intersecting with the rising full moon.

Apparently, the amount of shuttle fuel consumed in one of these launches is equivalent to just two minutes of gasoline consumption in the US in a day. The exhaust gas of the main engines is furthermore made up of water vapour and so does not harm the atmosphere. There are still carbon emissions to consider, and the solid fuel propellants used produce clouds that could impact on the local environment. Still, many other human activities have such effects and that plume is not as damaging as people might suspect.

This next humdinger depicts Atlantis’s sister Space Shuttle Endeavour as it races into space on an International Space Station assembly mission in 2008. The spectacle was captured from the Florida waterfront by an amateur photographer, though he should consider himself something of a pro after taking this shot. More a pillar of smoke than a fiery arc, the glow amidst the encroaching darkness and almost tornado-like formation of the plume are nonetheless tremendously beautiful. You wonder whether the reason these photos are so striking is that the spacecraft themselves aren’t in them.
Check out the one above. It’s another stunner. According to NASA’s website: “Birds don’t fly this high. Airplanes don’t go this fast. The Statue of Liberty weighs less. No species other than human can even comprehend the event. The launch of a rocket bound for space inspires awe and challenges description.” Nice words to accompany an even nicer image. What is it that so challenges description? The Space Shuttle Atlantis, lifting off to drop by on the International Space Station in 2001. It’s a case of blink and you’ll miss it with Atlantis, which is due to be retired in 2010.

Oh. My. Golly. What a shot. Taken in 1998, this awesome image shows NASA’s Lunar Prospector spacecraft shooting into the sky above Cape Canaveral, riding an Athena II rocket. Destination is in sight. Captured in time exposure, the fiery launch tail forms an arch in the foreground, while the moon, near its first quarter phase, looks on, some 250,000 miles away. Prospector will cover the distance in about 5 days. Prepare for blast-off as we explore stunning photos of space launches and wonder what it all means from an environmental point of view.

The Prospector mission carried an array of instruments to map the surface composition and other facets of the Earth’s only natural satellite. The results improved our understanding of the Moon’s origin, evolution and resources, yet we still managed to make our mark there in what some might see as a slightly bungling and absurd manner. From its orbital vantage point, just 63 miles above the Moon’s surface, Prospector was deliberately crashed into a crater near the lunar south pole in a failed attempt to detect the presence of water. Maybe it was worth a shot.

Tautou. Ngilu.

Here, Now

Wipe the tears
stop crying please
Hate to see his love hurting you

Yes, you made yourself cry
Because I know I won’t
for happy ones I will

Let’s heal you, princess
Allow yourself
consent me to try
It’s time

Embrace
Not the irony
Not the paradox,
but the love

Just the love

Gombal Undur Diri

Akhirnya
Akhirnya
Dari semua gombalan
Dari semua yang termakan gombalan
Ada satu
Cuma satu
Yang membuat gombalangombalanku
Tak lagi bualan

Nite Shadow

by Burat & Wury

Blinded star sparkling eye

lies beneath the stormy sky

Warmth wind kisses chill

Isn't it true that you are here?

Flies flapping lies flying

all becomes the words dying

Clinking through snapping glasses

Still I should believe without cause?

For I have thought a million think

For I have flown a million wings

Share the love ignored them

Where you are therefore I am

How far?

Wonder me wonders
How far far away
you your soft lips
and sad sad eyes
have to be
for me yes me
to stop loving you?

Kelam Mendua

Kelam tak perlu merintih kan? Tak perlu menyanyat? Tak perlu sakit.

Kelam itu berirama. Bernada. Bersuara indah.

Mungkin.

Mungkin juga karena kelam bersuara dua.

Lihat, lihat.

"Lihat kanan kiri kita, sayang!"

"Iya, mereka iri melihat kita."

"Bukan. Mereka tahu kau tak mencintaiku"

Love is not love is love is not love is love

Must not show how much affection,
only ought to show how much could hold it up

Don't say how much missing the companion,
screaming it at a perfect distant

Should not be addicted though you've become zealous,
keep it dull but honest

Never ever ask "what's wrong" whenever she's wondering,
just shut up and keep driving

Is it that hard to love her as they say?

Really?

Thinking of who?

It's easier to sleep than to find someone who you really connect with.

So I guess these sleepless nights definitely a good thing ;)

"Do you think being miserable makes you a better, smarter person than the others?"

Nope.

It just makes you a miserable person.

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